“Rather than allowing my heart to harden, I’ve chosen to have the heart of a samurai.” That’s why I do what I do on this blog. Allow this to encourage you to never give up on your healing and self-improvement journey. There is a great power that comes from mastering the art of self-healing which happens when you overcome all your past traumas. No longer will the pain of the past have power over YOU because now YOU have reclaimed your power.

How do you do this?

Wisdom allows you to live with infinite peace because you are able to make sense out of the traumas you’ve faced. Anger cannot live within an individual who no longer harbors in hatred, thus they cannot be controlled by those who programmed them to self-destruct. Also, you cannot hate what you deeply understand. Once you reach a high level of understanding about this world, then there’s no need to be angry because you already know. You’re highly aware about what this life is: all it is, is a battleground where souls meet which brings you to spiritual warfare. Everyday of your life you will be in constant battle with yourself and your reactions determines how far you’ve reached in your healing journey.

Wisdom gives you peace because you will no longer react to things the way you once did before. You have accepted all your flaws and turned your weaknesses into strengths, so there’s nothing to feel insecure about. Therefore, there’s nothing for them to attack.

You will feel a sense of empowerment like never before. It is the most beautiful thing to ever feel because you never thought you’d make it this far. Healing from childhood traumas is the biggest accomplishment you could ever make. It’s better than graduation, and has more value than degrees or finances because this is THE REBIRTH OF THE SOUL we’re talking about. I’m not saying you shouldn’t get that money, but what I’m saying is that it’s really not the most important thing. Your mental health and spiritual well-being should be your top priority always.

What you’ll notice when you overcome past traumas is how liberating you feel, and how wise you’ve become. You’re a real winner when you don’t allow these things to corrupt your soul. You kept pushing through the heartaches and anxiety. No matter what happened to you, you still remained a good person. It has nothing to do with perfection. It’s all about your determination and tenacity to keep walking the narrow path, and seeking God to restore you after you’ve fallen down. You only truly fail when you become reprobate, but if you’re still putting in the effort to grow then there’s still hope for you. You have to be willing to walk this path alone because not many people actually do it, and that’s OK. That’s why they call it the narrow path for a reason. You don’t feel lonely when you learn to embrace solitude, and when you know that God is with you.

Another thing I love is how much control I have over my own life. I know myself and no one can get away with talking down on me because I know that what they’re saying is not true. I filter out the bullshit, and keep it moving because I got better places to be.

Yeah, that’s exactly true. No one can tell you who you are when God already inscribed your true identity in your heart.


What happens when you overcome past traumas?

YOU WILL FEEL UNSTOPPABLE. After all the stuff you’ve been through, IT HAD NO POWER OVER YOU because you remained consistent. It didn’t matter how much you’ve lost whether it was your money, sanity, self-esteem, or your damn mind. Whatever it was YOU MADE IT THROUGH ALIVE!

What did you go through, huh? Mental, emotional, psychological, narcissistic, physical, sexual abuse? All the above or maybe a combination of some?

Either way IT WAS SOME HARD SHIT to go through. Hell yeah, we’re gonna be angry. We wanna tear some shit up because we can’t take it anymore, right!? Yeah, but healing helps you find better ways to cope with that.

All the things that people have said or done to you, that was meant to bring you down, will literally dissipate from existence because YOU HAVE MANIFESTED GREATNESS for yourself. You will realize that you never needed their validation or approval to become WHO YOU WANNA BECOME. The power was always in YOU. That’s why your words and your mindset are key to unlocking the many doors that will lead you to success and fulfillment. Overcoming traumas is the GREATEST form of success. It is TRUE SUCCESS that money cannot buy. This is something that can only be cultivated from within. The world cannot give you true healing. It can only numb the pain, but it can never cure it. The world can feed your flesh, but your spirit would continue to be neglected. Get in tune with the Spirit through prayer and fasting, and connect with God in order to plug into the infinite source of life that can restore you.

No matter how much people have tried to rob from you including their failed attempts to destroy you, overcoming traumas will equip you with many skills including the art of adaptability, high emotional intelligence, knowledge, and heightened intuition. Knowing the enemy is easy now because they pretty much fall under the same template as my past abusers. It’s the same old dumb shit of them trying to project onto me, slander me, speak word curses against me, mind-altering manipulation, blameshifting, intimidation, emotional blackmail, among other dark psychological tactics, yeah you name it! I’ve paid very close attention to these things, so it became easy for me to spot manipulative individuals before I was even 18. I absorbed all the information and collected it, and I only use it as a reference to help me detect these types of wicked individuals. Because of this knowledge, there’s no point in reacting emotionally to manufactured conflicts that don’t even exist. It only exists through our reactions, and when you don’t give it your energy it remains irrelevant BECAUSE IT ALREADY WAS.

We give the illusionists control over us when we give them our energy, and react the way they want us to. That’s the one thing I learned very, very early on in this life, and that is: the power of our emotional reactions. Some people thrive off of it. Yeah, I know a lot about that because my childhood abusers loved the look of fear and sorrow I had in my face whenever they came near me. Oh, it made them feel so powerful to see a little girl traumatized because they’ve just snatched the innocence away. They’ll manipulate everyone around you or keep them distracted and busy, so you have no support and no one to help you. They’ll even control the narrative about YOU, so that everyone can go against YOU when YOU’VE BEEN THE VICTIM THE ENTIRE TIME! That’s how evil they are, so yeah I know a lot about the psychopathic and narcissistic mind because I was a child victim who experienced the abuse first-hand.

One of my poetic lines goes like, “I stared into the eyes of the most conniving.” Yeah, that’s where it came from: the 2 soulless ones who abused me as a child. They have those same empty eyes full of darkness that can only be felt by the power of empathy which detects devils in my vicinity. You can have these abilities too, in order to protect yourself. Pray for it and you will receive it. Let me share you my experience with that.


PRAYING FOR WISDOM & MY SPIRITUAL EVOLUTION

You see, look at this beautiful blog I’ve produced. This was created by a recovering broken woman who suffers from cPTSD (I’m doing better now though), and it doesn’t even seem like it, does it? When you look at me, I don’t look like what I’ve been through because I don’t wanna walk around with a chip on my shoulder.

I REFUSE TO ALLOW ANYONE TO ROB ME OF MY PEACE. I WILL NOT ALLOW ANYTHING TO TAKE AWAY MY ABILITY TO LOVE. I WILL ALWAYS WIN because I LOVE VERY DEEPLY, AND I AM DETERMINED TO ACCOMPLISH MY MISSION NO MATTER WHAT. I mind as well make something beautiful out of this pain if it means that IT WILL SAVE LIVES AND RESTORE THE BROKEN. My sense of peace will always stay with me for as long as God lives within me, and those who try to disturb it will only end up cursing themselves.

Everytime someone harms a pure-hearted person, THEIR CRIES OF DESPAIR AND ANGUISH WILL BE MAGNIFIED because AN INJUSTICE HAS TAKEN PLACE that which MUST BE RECTIFIED. THE MOST HIGH WILL DELIVER RIGHTEOUS WRATH (KARMA) TO THOSE EVIL REPROBATES WHO DON’T SEEK TO REPENT. As you know, the psychopathic soulless ones are withering and decaying by the day now, as we get restored from their abuse and ascend.

I have preserved myself for a very long time because I have chosen to listen to Divine wisdom since I prayed relentlessly for hours since I was 14 because I knew that I was doomed to ruin my own life. Being sexually abused at the ages of 3, 8, and 13, I knew I was going to be destined for absolute failure and permanent brokenness. I started praying and pleading to God to give me wisdom, so I can properly fit the pieces together.

My prayers went something like, “Hey, I need you to guide me and tell me what I need to do to make it out of this. I feel like I’ve been cursed since birth. Lead me to the right direction in life and I promise you I will abide by it. Look I don’t know what I’m doing. I’m yearning for love, but I’m afraid of it. I smell delicious to predators and manipulators. I don’t know what a healthy relationship is suppose to look like. I know I have a good heart, but this world is so cruel, and that’s why I’m asking for you to help me. I will listen. Please tell me everything I must do, and I will follow your orders like a loyal soldier would. I know this road is going to be hard, but I’d rather go through that than to end up in an abusive relationship down the line due to lack of knowledge. So please give me wisdom, so I don’t have to suffer! I want to put an end to this… speak to me and guide me into all the right directions if you’re hearing me…”

This would go on for a couple of hours. I felt alone, so I would either write or pray. I was battling with self-harm, sleep paralysis, and demonic attacks nearly every night. I didn’t understand it at the time. I thought God hated me because He allowed me to suffer to the point I didn’t think I belonged to Him. This made me feel more broken, so eventually I gave up my faith temporarily. I stopped believing in God altogether. I thought I was just going crazy, and I wanted to be normal again. I was tired of the restless nights, the PTSD triggering nightmares, and just life in general. I didn’t understand why God was allowing these demons to rob me of my sleep when I’ve been praying and reading the Bible despite the darkness that surrounded me. I didn’t realize at the time that those words I spoke to him created a shift in the universe, and it agitated the hell out of those familiar spirits and the demons who’ve remained unseen for many generations. I just called them out, and they hated me for it. They knew I could feel and see them. I was the only one who could detect the presence of evil spirits, and they were happy to haunt us.


HYPERSENSITIVITY TO THE SPIRTUAL REALM

Demons thrive in places they can’t be seen, but the moment you spot them, they will immediately attack people like us. I’ve been highly sensitive to the spiritual realm since I was a kid, and I didn’t understand how I would get anxiety around certain people. I could feel that darkness and heaviness from them. I thought it was just because of my trauma, but it was more than that because I usually ended up being right about those certain individuals.


A GLIMPSE OF ONE OF MY TESTIMONIES

When I was in my preteens this gift became dormant as soon as that fake-ass-father-figure-wannabe-mentor psychopath entered into my life when I was 10, and he gradually dimmed my light. I recall the day he looked into my eyes and said to me, “Yo se que eres muy inteligente.” (I can tell you’re very intelligent). He smiled but his eyes had hatred in them. It took him 3 years to gain my trust only to “try to” destroy me through sexual and narcissistic (psychological) abuse. He fucked my mind up so much to the point I became suicidal at the age of 14. He delivered the final blows to my spirit, and the memories from prior abuse from when I was 3 and 8 at the hands of another soulless one resurfaced. It would keep popping up in my head like pop-up ads. I was going crazy.

Looking back with a healed mind, I can certainly say that he is indeed a psychopath because of how he could go about his day smiling as if he didn’t just get done destroying my mind and soul, and it would gaslight me. Also, I know I ain’t the only one. You’re never the only victim when it comes to these soulless ones. They are demons incarnate, and you have to stand face-to-face to know what they’re like. They emanate a demonic presence that invites demons into your home, and you start to have supernatural experiences which includes shadow spirits and nocturnal anxiety attacks.

I went through a lot with this soulless individual who sought to destroy me in any way he could. I would have nightmares about him chasing me with a deadly weapon, and I would wake up with excessive anxiety that just couldn’t go away. After I exposed him as a sex offender, he was deported, and strange things started to happen all of a sudden. I recall a woman telling us that someone was putting witchcraft on us. Though, that remains a mystery, but only GOD knows what he’s done in the dark, and he will pay for everything he did.

I went from having nightmares about him persecuting me, to having dreams where I’m beating the living shit out of him, and he still came after me like a revived zombie. This symbolizes that he’s reprobate which it’s already expected because he’s a very trifling individual, so I slammed the door on his face. I take these recent dreams as a sign that I’ve accomplished a lot of healing because that mind control he had me under has been LONG GONE just like the anxiety he used to give me. I FEAR NO DEVIL. After shutting the door on him for good, I felt an immense sense of resiliency and empowerment. It was almost as if he never existed.

You know why?

Because he was nothing more than a soulless one, an empty vessel from the devil, and everything he said to me was pure lies. The spiritual samurai sword has and will put an END to him and people like him. He is going through the wrath of God for destroying innocent people, and taking pleasure from it. He literally laughed, mocked, and body shamed my under developed body after sexually abusing me in order to further humiliate me. He told me that no man would ever want me in such a broken state when HE WAS THE ONE WHO CONTRIBUTED TO MY BROKENNESS, and I witnessed him enjoying every moment of my suffering. You can’t forgive people like that because forgiveness is not applicable for the soulless ones. He used to tell me that he knew me more than I knew myself, and that I was worthless and wasn’t going to be shit. Yeah, because I was a little girl at the time, so I actually believed it, but NOW I AM A WOMAN, and a wise one at that. GOD HAS RESTORED ME, and I know who I am. Therefore, an abuser’s word curses have absolutely NO POWER OVER ME whatsoever! The words that the spiritual samurai write, speak, and pray hold more power than anything a devil has to say.

I BECAME EVERYTHING THAT HE SAID I COULD NEVER BE!

I BECAME WHAT THEY SAID I WASN’T GOING TO BE BECAUSE I’M SUPPOSED TO BE STUPID! I was never stupid. I was born with a star in me.

Despite all that, I still don’t hate men because all of that was spiritual warfare. It never had anything to do with gender. This wasn’t man vs woman. It was simply good vs evil, and evil will always lose no matter how much they think they’re getting away with things. I hope this testimony has inspired you. Please don’t give up on your healing journey. You wanna be EMPOWERED spiritually, so you can be UNSTOPPABLE. Don’t hesitate to call unto God. He’s the only one you can truly confide in.

Gloria a Yahawa que nos trai el agua.