What do you do when most of what you know is pain?

What else do you expect?
When you were forced to accept tremendous pestilence,
Plenty of demonios I’ve intercepted,
Neglect makes you magnetic,
Electrical and powerful,
Neurological currents,
Not many can comprehend,
Our presence attracts those who,
Have no idea of the level,
Of emotional alchemy,
Needed to produce words,
Used as medicinal cures,
That requires poison to be extracted,
From the spiritual attacks,
That left an impact, So wounded,
Y es por eso, que yo siento profundamente,
Casi me inundo en la depression,
Hasta que la oscuridad se disminuyo.

Speaking with intensity comes with pure honesty,
Whether or not you like it,
I’ve earned my stripes, as an empowered individual,
From years of endurance,
Preventing the psychosis they wished  would unfold,
All it ever did was make me glow,
I’m so loving even though most of what I know is pain,
Deep emotional pain,
That arises from ashes that burned mi corazon,
Oh, I’m sorry I’m too intense,
I’m so in love with this catharsis,
A relief from years of silence,
When I was psychologically dying,
Until I was brought back to life,
By a divine force many deny,
I’m always running from those who claim to love me,
Bc most of them just wanted to bomb me,
I’ve been guided by a Divine force, who protected me from those who wanted to coerce me to be their subordinate,
I couldn’t believe Elohim would be near me,
I was told I would be nothing,
But something kept nudging me,
To express myself lyrically instead of letting the ink bleed.

I apologize for expecting the worst,
My beautiful face hides many pains,
I carry the kind of light that incites the soulless to dim it,
I never asked to be born, in a world where,
You come out the womb already wounded,
Before all that I was born powerful,
A seed from a mighty nation,
So it makes sense why, they couldn’t break me,
And they never will,
The soulless always lose when they approach a chosen,
I work diligently to destroy every suicidal thought,
Brought by the darkness from the cursed marks of… you already know what.

My intensity is scary for those who don’t understand my complexity,
They don’t know that,
Pain provides the fire that forges unique insight,
Corazon ruptured so much,
But I recovered just as much,
Most of what I know is pain,
And I use it to fuel my poetic intricacies,
What you think is intense is nothing to me,
I’ve grown accustomed to ruminating on the things that nearly broke me,
Releasing my intensity poetically is therapeutic, even if it sounds like doom to you,
I feel anew everytime I produce,
I mastered the art of transmuting,
The very same pain meant to make me mute,
How else could I live with this fuego contained within me,
De todos los duelos que duelen,
Yo hablo,
Y expreso,
Todos esos sentimientos cuando me tenian preso,
Peleando contra esos pensamientos pesimistico,
Uso liricos para destruir lo que me han escrito,
Poder mistico pa’crear un mejor futuro,
Casi parece psychico y un poco cynico,
Pero mi mentalidad es solido,
Despues de todo eso,
Es lo que hace mi amor mucho mas poderoso,
Sin esfuerzo,
Esto es,
lo que lo hace,
Intenso.