F L A S H B A C K S (poem)

It's been since 2009, since I lied in the dark hoping to die one day through hard liquor,

From all the gaslighting, causing me to lose sight of the writing on the wall,

Appalled by the actions of the fallen,

Just when I thought I've gotten over it all,

Flashbacks come back, to remind me of the past, that brought me much anguish.

Creating an appearance, mirroring the sting that causes futures to feel bleak despite achieving peace,

Disrupting my daily routine with obscene scenes that laced me with hostility,

As I increase insight, so does my misery, at least the devil doesn't whisper to me,

Like he once did when I was spiritually oblivious of the rituals that curses lineages,

All for the sake of attaining riches, you never know who in your kin is witches,

Wondering which one is, who's been plotting against you since the beginning,

It's no wonder we've been witnessing many spirits sprinting to the basement,

Seeking to debase you into non-existence,

Incubus pimps many women until they reach oblivion, never believing in em,

Sending em to broken graves, to the point they cannot retrace steps back to the faith from the beginning,

Feeling unworthy of blessings everytime flashbacks intrudes our vision,

Triggers hitting like an immense amount of bricks,

Seems insurmountable, yet I crouch like a hidden tiger, seeking to elevate higher,

Toward Ahayah. Elohim is the light I gleam, as He encourages me daily in my dreams,

With me wearing pearl and royal blue kimono, el exodo de todo dolor,
With pristine scenes of royalty, serving as a reminder that I am worthy.

-Y A S I R A A K A M A I

Published by Yasira Akamai

Wife. Writer. Poet. Artist. Lyricist. Born in December 16, 1995. Mexican-American. Southwestern US born -> Grew up in the Chicagoland area & Northwest Indiana (mostly East Chicago) -> moved to a warmer place living that Southern coastal life. I've been writing since like around the late 2000s. Depression and anxiety was swallowing me and I had difficulty trusting others, so I decided to confide in writing. It started off as Spanish songwriting, then it evolved into English poetry, prose, and short stories the more I improved my English grammar and vocabulary. I once had to take ESL classes, until it was determined that I didn't need to anymore around middle school. I became so dedicated to writing that I just did it everyday, and it served as my daily therapy as I was battling with negative thoughts. It put my mind in a state of meditation where it opened me up to many ideas and inspiration that I lived to create. I began to notice that I could write and speak things into existence with my words and actions. I had to find myself, and search for the power of the mind. Blog posts written by the author who goes by the pen name, Yasira Akamai, are intellectual property that belongs to the original author.   ©2021 Yasira Akamai, Power_of_the_Mind_Blog

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